Today is the 4th anniversery of my Son Jeff's death. It will be a trying day as I have already thought about him several times. They say that times heals, but it doesn't heal it just allows you to adjust a little. We all still miss him very much. We miss how he loved to pick at his Mother every chance he got. How he was always there when I needed Him.
Although we miss Jeff Very much it has taught us to hold our other Children Closer to our hearts. In my mind there has never been a favored child, they all had their unique ways which were a part of our relationship. But the loss of one makes you realize and appreciate this uniqueness even more in the others.
I just want to say I Love and miss Jeff as much today as I did 4 years ago.
This will be a hard day for me the rest of my life. But he made the rest of them so much brighter by his coming into them.

Love Dad

Today is Jeff's 39th birthday. I still continue to think about him daily. I think about the good times and good things we had. One of the things that keeps coming to mind is that Jeff was the most complete person I know.He loved his friends and loved being with them and doing things for them. He also loved his Family and would do anything we ever asked of him. He was super intelligent and could do almost anything from repair a computer to build a house or rebuild a car.
The thing that set him apart was that he was also self contained. He could be completely happy by himself doing the things he wanted to do without anyone around. This to me is a sign of a person who is comfortable with himself without external stimuli.
He had confidence in his abilities and knowledge and did not have to show off to get attention, but let you know that he had been and done almost everything that he wanted to see and do.

Life will never be the same without him, But he made life better by being here for a little while.

Happy Birthday Son

Carl Ryder